The Night Before My Life Changes

Someone told me that Live it Out by Metric reminds them of me. Every time I feel anxiety or nervousness about the enormity of this trip and its consequences I think about this song and it reminds me of my inner strength, or at least the strength that some people seem to think I have.

The night before travel I remember this song:

On the day we were supposed to leave
You changed your mind at the station
You had a nice apartment
There was a good bar downstairs
Your old friend worked there

I’ll go anyway, I’ll go anyway
They won’t refund the ticket
It’s a good story

But I don’t want to live it alone
Crash to take a chance
I wanna live it out
Look at you, I know I’m already dead
No concrete adversity
Only traps of our own actions
How we wanted it to be
Now I’m never gonna see you again
You turned off

Vertabrae by vertebrae
Roll your way out of a coma
Look up, the nurse is smiling
What luck, the nurse is me
Your old body is dead
Your body’s dead, you’re a word instead
In my sleep I repeat it
It’s a good story

But I don’t want to live it alone
Crash to take a chance
We were gonna live it out
Look at you, you’re already dead
How will you remember me
Digging ditches out of boredom
Said you would never leave
Now you’re never gonna be here again
You checked out